Oh!

And J broke his nose last night. I completely forgot. He had an appointment at the doctor today at 1:45pm and I still have not heard from him. Why??

Wrap-Up

My friend from college came to visit, so Rah and I took her out in style. On Friday night, we went to this great place in my neighborhood. We felt like we were back in Europe, or at least TOLD ourselves we felt like we were back in Europe. Anyway, we had little bits of cheese and wine and chocolate, my little piece of heaven. Everything is by the ounce, so you pay anywhere from $1 to $3 per ounce of cheese, wine or chocolate and so are able to TASTE everything on the menu (well maybe not everything, but we tried)! We chatted and caught up and it was so nice. I forgot how nice it is to have girlfriends who KNOW you, not just know you as you are now, but know you and your history. They knew me in college, knew me when I started dating J, knew me when J and I broke up and I dated others and then subsequently came to our wedding. I am myself around them and I realized something this weekend, my self is an annoying know-it-all beatch sometimes! I felt myself spouting diatribes about things that I only have read about, not experienced (like childbirth and starting a business) and this spouting opened my eyes to the fact that I DO IT ALL THE TIME. I am a know-it-all! It is something I definitely do not like about myself and now that I have realized and admitted it, am going to try and change. I think what happens is that at work I always have to agree with other people, so when I am not at work, I try to impose my will and ideas on those around me. Argh! Must stop knowing it all. Because I don't. Not even close.

Kiki had her baby yesterday and I am jealous. I am jealous that her husband was talking about how she was so strong and dug deep when they thought she might have to have c-section after endless pushing and pushed the baby out. I just hope with all my heart that J feels that way about me someday. I am jealous that she gets a perfect little creature of her own. I am jealous that she had an easy breezy conception and pregnancy and delivery. And most of all, jealous that she has three months of maternity leave from work. I am happy for her, so happy, but yesterday when I knew she was in labor, all I felt like doing was crying. I have no idea why.

We are going to visit her after work today and so from today on, I am going to try my hardest to not let it show how jealous I am.

The grass IS greener

I have a good friend from college, who let's call Mel for anonymity sake. Mel got pregnant while dating her boyfriend, they broke up, got back together, she had the baby and then they got married (to make a loooooonng story very short). The now have another baby and have moved to Mississippi. He is in the armed forces and is currently in Iraq. She is a stay-at-home mom with the two kids and they own a really cool older Southern home. I want what she has. I want my life to be that simple. She is raising her children, putting down roots with her husband and making a small difference in the world. When I was younger, I thought having a family is so boring, so trite, your life is basically over once you do that. But seeing her and seeing how she lives, it looks amazing to me now. I am sick of working my heiny off for a company that could care less. I'm sick of the rat race of the Big City in the North life. I just want my hubby, my pup and some adorable children and to live my life to the fullest raising them to be decent and kind human beings.

Ding dang, I want what Mel has.

Is that so much to ask?

Monday FunDay

So today, J almost electrocuted himself at work. He was working on a big machine and hit metal to metal or something like that, and a huge explosion happened. I guess that is one of the risks of being a computer engineer? Luckily, he suffered no injuries, but part of me thinks that a little jolt to the head might have been nice, maybe knocked some sense into him.

It was so nice getting dressed in my new clean closet this morning. After cleaning it on Sunday, I took 2 huge garbage bags to goodwill and can now remember a lot of the clothes that are in there. I can't believe some of the stuff I forgot I had! I need to remember that when I feel the urge to buy more.

I just went online and cashed in a bunch of my amex points. I've been trying (not very hard) to stop spending so much money, so I thought that I would by some of my Christmas presents with Amex point giftcards. We'll see how that goes.

1 day down, 4 to go!

Tis the Season

Today is December 1st, I can't believe it! I love Christmas time and all that it entails. Except the cold weather, I hate cold weather. I am really really trying to get J to move someplace warm, but unfortunately, we are stuck here for his job. His job that he does no work at. UGH.

Anyway, today I met up with my darling little Rah for lunch. She is such a sweetheart. We went to Whole Foods and bought a bunch of the prepared food and had a bit of a picnic in the eating area. I got yelled at by this older lady who thought I was trying to put my sleeve in her soup. She was taking FOREVER at the salad bar, so I reached around her soup and she accused me of putting my sleeve in her soup and not saying excuse me. I told her that my sleeve, in fact, did not go in her soup, it wasn't wet. She said I still should have said excuse me. So, I said excuse me and excuse you too. It was not one of my finer moments.

I am sitting here waiting for J's uncle Will to get here with his son Baseball Boy. BB is a phenomenal high school baseball player and so is making the rounds to clinics and showcases in order to get his name out there for college scholarships. He has a clinic tomorrow near us, so they are coming for dinner and staying the night. It should be fun. Will is always a barrel of laughs. BB is adorable and is that guy who is cool, but SUCH a nice guy too. And not a dork. Hard to come by that is for sure!